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Welcome to the third edition of This & That. What's that you say? Well it's a little of this and a little of that. Who's Us? That's exactly the point of This & That. Do you know anything about the Reviewer here? Or who is that person(s) you're talking to on Facebook and Twitter? You're about to!

I love Labor Day weekend. I really do.

It seems like, for whatever reason, the week before Labor day every single year is one of the most stressful, messed up, chaotic weeks of the year. My job has become this cesspool of stress and it's become almost unbearable. Last week I mentioned my health problems and stress isn't helping that at all.

I tried have a little chit chat with my boss and his boss simply (and professionally) explaining how heavy the workload is being that there is just me and 1 other person there. We have over 140 clients to take care of PLUS their clients that come in and it's ME and 1 other person. Yet the tone of the conversation from my bosses was pretty much 'too bad for you. get it done'. In fact my direct supervisor literally said 'I understand.  In the Center I sit in the Center Manager was in a similar situation. Only her and one person and she'd come in at 7:30am and stay late in the evening to get the work done. It's possible to get everything done. You just have to do it'. I felt like saying well obviously that Center Manager is an idiot with no life. Instead what I said was something to the effect  of 'I just want you to understand the situation. That's the reason I said something'. What else could I say? I mean.. there are a lot of things that were running through my head but I assure you not a single one would have made the conversation any better.

To add to my week, outside of work, there has been personal stress as well. Having this blog has taught me that you have to check your ego at the proverbial blog door. You can't expect people to act with the same morals you have and you have to, at times, bite your cheek and hold your tongue when you feel slighted. And that's exactly what I've had to do. I've gotten my feelings hurt and have had to step back and realize that the word 'friend' has different meanings to different people and that you will not always get credit when credit is due. It's been a trying and humbling experience. It has also made me reevaluate who I help and who I don't. Normally I'm not the type to be an 'eye for an eye' type girl but I'm also not going to be someones doormat or homework doer. I've spent a lot of time on this site, have put in a lot of work and simply will not freely give help or knowledge to people that will take that and run with out even a Thank you.

And now that I've put that out there and had my say I will learn from it and move on. Ahhhh.. the joys of therapeutic writing. LOL

I hope everyone enjoys their long weekend and gets in a lot of good reading time. Here's to hoping the week after Labor day will be a good one!

Until next week Ladies and Gents: Be Safe - No Paper Cuts!

So, I have to say this. I kind of miss Mondays. 

OK. That’s not true.

But, I do miss my routine of going to work. Feeling accomplished. Real paychecks, my health insurance, work socializing, interaction with people, etc. LOL.

Seriously though, I am not sure how many of have been unemployed before, but it seems like it would be awesome when you are having your worst day at work. It isn’t though. I feel lost, worried and restless most of the time. I spend a lot of restless days/nights worrying if I am going to find a job that pays more than $10 an hour and has health insurance. I have no idea what kind of job I will find. I had been at my job for quite awhile and it was a specific and the market is terrible. Slim job listings.

And while yes, I have the time to read, write, do what I want to do during the day, I don’t do that as much as I would nearly like. I feel guilty that I am not job searching 24/7. I feel bad I am not really contributing.  And I guess I’m just in a funky down mood sometimes. This is my first time since high school; I have not had a job. I have been out of work for almost 6 months now. 

Wow.

And everyone tells me; well at least you can go do things while you are off work. Do things that you have wanted to do. But, the truth is, I can’t. I have no funds to go out. Doesn’t that figure? You finally have the time to do stuff and no funds. Then, when you have funds, you have no time to do stuff. Murphy’s Law...right?

OK. I hope that I haven’t bummed you all out! This is something that I am feeling this week. I hope that none of you are in this situation. But, unfortunately, some of you may be in the same boat or have been in the boat before.

Next week...I move to happier topics! Pinky swear! Have a great short week! Be safe!

May the force be with you...

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